Again

 .....and in the Grande dream

I saw the Lord

and we stood face to face

and He said

I'm sending you back

again

to live it all again

and I said i don't wanna go back

to that place ever again

Earth

and He said why not ?

isn't is so beautiful ?

and I said no its not

And He said "Don't worry , You won't remember any of this:

and I said;

Yes I will

and that even I

can recognize a machine

and calculus , and math 

that kill

and He said you just have to try

Harder

next time

and i asked him what are my options

and he said that I have none

again and again

and that 

 I must learn

and I told him

i had a thousand deja vu's

and 

I always knew

it was a plan

and one ,...  that I could never win

and He informed me I was wrong

and I'd  be doing it again

until I get it

right

and I wondered for a moment

as I asked;

can I just go straight to hell instead ?

because they might just be

one and the same

anyway 

and in the end

and he said you have to grow thick skin

and this time will be different

I'm  gonna remake you 6 foot three

and rich 

and they will all love you now

and I said to thee

I don't wanna be loved for that

just wanna be loved

for me

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